Here is a journal entry from 2011 that the Lord brought me back to recently. I asked the Lord to show me truth in his 23rd Psalm. He began to paint for me a picture that began with us in the pasture but it ended with me understanding so much more about our relationship. It was a revelation that my heart needed...and I still need to return to it often. I pray it blessed you this morning!
January 24, 2011
January 24, 2011
Lord, what do you want to say to me this morning about the
23rd Psalm?
I see Jesus kneeling by a sheep...a wooly sheep. It has a collar
and a bell and there is a leash on it. But, Jesus is bending down and taking
the leash off from the collar.
You are not led like this,
child.
I reach down, kneeling beside Jesus and pet the sheep. After
a moment, it trots off with a baa and a jingle of its bell to the other sheep.
We laugh.
This leash in my
hand…? Jesus tosses it.
It’s not
needed, with you, child.
Jesus put his arm around my shoulder as we walk towards the
flock. The land is lush and green. Beautiful mountains along the horizon.
You do not need to be
tamed or pulled. A sheep does not need to be pulled or tamed. It is trained by
the hearing of the ear, by the gentle nudging of my crook and the gentle call
of my voice. It follows, not out of obligation, but out of sheer trust.
We sit down in the green field. I see the crook lying on the
grass next to Jesus. We are comfortable in this field. I see that my ‘collar’ is
a necklace with a cross on it. I hold it and look at it.
This is your
decoration, child. The sheep wears the bell so that I can hear it. But you,
child…you are always before my eyes…even in the darkest of places, I see you
and I hear you. You wear a necklace for beauties sake. I decorate your life
with beauty, not with a leash or collar. It is a necklace given as a precious
gift. The cross lies on your heart.
Like the bundle of myrrh in Song of Songs J
Yes! Jesus
squeezes me in.
This cross lies on your
heart as a reminder of my love for you. Yes, it is about you here and now. See
these sheep? They do not know where they are going. Nor do they fear. But you,
child, are not a mere sheep. You are my beloved one. I grace you, not like a
mere sheep, but as a friend and lover…as the Bridegroom does his bride. My
sacrifice for you lies upon your heart as a reminder. You are more valuable to
me than all the sheep in a flock, child J. Yet, the Good shepherd lays down his life for the
sheep. How much more so will the good bridegroom, the good king, lay down his
life for the one his heart burns for? His heart bleeds for? I love you with an
everlasting love. Not as a pet but as a
companion and friend.
Yet, child, you trust me as a sheep does a shepherd to lead you and direct you.
This is the trust of a bride to her groom.
Selah. I love you, Lord.
I am now walking among the flock, running my hand gently over
their wool. There is a crook in my hand. Jesus is standing watching and smiling.
We laugh.
But, Lord…YOU are MY shepherd! That’s what I came to talk to
you about this morning!
Oh, my child. You
delight my heart. I trust in you as you trust in me. Even as you have said,
lead me, lord….as a sheep to the shepherd, I have given you charge of your own
little flock and said, ‘lead them.’ You have served faithfully to the best of
your ability and beyond child…truly, to lead them as you know how into my ways.
You have led them into green pastures to find rest and this is pleasing to me.
Thank you, Lord.
You have done well,
child. My bride. Now, it is time for you to rest in me. Child, your heart keeps
coming back to this because this is what I want you to see today: You are more
than a sheep to me. You are my bride. THIS is how I’ve called you to live. Yes,
I will lead you and you need not want. But hear me now: This is the love of a
father to a child, of a husband to his bride. No fear. Just mercy and love.
Just peace in direction. You have known much fear and mistrust in your leading
through the years on the natural plain. And yet, child…you have pleased me
because you have fought your way through the doubt and mistrust to a place of
surrender to ME. This honors ME, child. When you honor your husband and his
decision though they may seem cloudy and muddled to you, it honors ME. This is
why I can trust you with my most precious possessions. My treasures of glory,
of purpose…and yes with my flocks for your care. You honor when it is hard and
this honors me. But as for me? I am a good Father. I am the Maker, your husband
and I will always lead you safely on. You are made for more than mere trust.
You are made to be beside me, walking hand in hand. You are made as my companion
for the ages, my helpmate, the one who comes along side under my arm and next
to my heart. Don’t you see? This is a relationship way beyond that of shepherd
and sheep…but it will not be known to all. It will be opened only to those who
do not need the leash J.
It will be given to those who press into my heart. I woo all but not all hear.
They wander like sheep. You have stayed close to the shepherd’s tent, child and
you have found favor. Even as Ruth slept at the feet of Boaz, child, you have
found your redeemer. You have pleased me with the pursuit of my heart. I have
promised you life and love and you will receive it.
You are mine, beautiful one. Just remember that today. No
power in hell can separate you from me for we are MORE than just mere shepherd
and sheep, although that is a strong bond indeed.
You and I are father to child and maker to created. We are bridegroom and bride
forever. I trust you with my heart and you trust me with yours. This is UNION . One flesh. This is trust at a whole other level, child. Beyond mere
feeding and leading. This is union.
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